it really hurts
i can feel you…everywhere
i wish i could see you…anywhere
I went to the store to buy you a Christmas card
Isn’t that crazy. You’ve been dead for a minute now.
I went to the store and I saw all the things you would like.
I cried at a CD of Chaka Khan. I cried at a book for Top Chef. I cried a cute sweater vest in your size.
emotions are swirling all through my head. they are drowning me.
I’m trying to come up for air
I knew this would happen but i was not prepared for it…fully
I remember all the good years we had to together. All the Christmas holidays.
then i smile again.
I still have people HERE that i need to give attention to
I still have people here to celebrate the holiday with.
I still have people here at Christmas..and some of them miss you too.
We can miss you together. The survivors.
We can love you together.
I want to be someone who is missed when i am gone.
I have to remember whether i am missing them or being with who’s left
Love is filling the room.
Love is filling my heart
Love is lighting my Christmas.
I am writing and writing so much poetry. It is spilling out of me! Some i have changed a bit and turned into songs. I am so proud of the surprise success of my Poetry book It was a labor of my life in 2016. My ups and downs and now I have decided that I will end the year with another poetry book. I am currently picking the poems to be included. This will chronicle my 2017 and its ups and DOWNS! I hope to have it out in December.
This has been a great outlet for me and getting my feelings out! I feel better personally and I hope people who pick up the books feel better too and can relate!
I Work Hard for the Money by James Lott Jr 2017
I work hard for the money!
Actually I work hard for the dream!
Actually I work for the dream!
Actually I work for the dream and hopefully it will make me money!
Money is not the reason I work for the dream.
Money isn’t the dream.
The dream is the dream but I have to make money too.
I can never forget that.
I can never forget the dream.
But I need to find ways for the dream and the money to intersect.
I feels unfair sometimes but then I remember
I’m living the dream.
To be able to dream and to work for it.
I work hard.
But it feels good and not always like work.
I make some money
Somehow I make it work.
Stay tuned for changes!!! I am streamlining my life and career! I am so excited to let you know whats going on!!!
Thank you for all the support !!!
It’s me James Lott Jr and I wanted to let you know that I am streamlining the company. I’m in the process of adding and subtracting. I am working with my other company JLJ Media to form something nice. I have a book division now. A music division too. They go along with the art, tv and radio stuff.
It will take a few months to get to get this all together.
Thank You for your support and stay tuned!!