In My Bed

01 Mar

Sometimes I lay in my bed and can’t sleep.

Suddenly thoughts come rushing to my head.

My mood changes faster than turning off a light switch.

Actually it feels like turning off a light switch.

The dark is the backdrop for my thoughts.

Its hard being positive all the time.

Its necessary to move forward in the world.

I actually like being positive.

But i am human and those negative thoughts do come.

I am in bed and they consume me.

I am so tired of the grind.

But I love the grind.

Tears fill my eyes.

I hate feeling this way.

I do not like feeling conflicted.

I have good things in my life.

But I do have missing things in my life.

IN this moment that’s all I can think about.

I choose to accept these feelings and feel them out.

It’s morning.

The tears are gone.

The light is coming thru the window.

I feel hopeful again.

I put what happened last night behind me.

I make my bed.



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