Sometimes I lay in my bed and can’t sleep.
Suddenly thoughts come rushing to my head.
My mood changes faster than turning off a light switch.
Actually it feels like turning off a light switch.
The dark is the backdrop for my thoughts.
Its hard being positive all the time.
Its necessary to move forward in the world.
I actually like being positive.
But i am human and those negative thoughts do come.
I am in bed and they consume me.
I am so tired of the grind.
But I love the grind.
Tears fill my eyes.
I hate feeling this way.
I do not like feeling conflicted.
I have good things in my life.
But I do have missing things in my life.
IN this moment that’s all I can think about.
I choose to accept these feelings and feel them out.
The tears are gone.
The light is coming thru the window.
I feel hopeful again.
I put what happened last night behind me.
I make my bed.