Monthly Archives: March 2017


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Green with envy

Green with jealously

The grass is greener on the other side

It ain’t easy been green

I see the pics.

I see the posts

I KNOW its of your best bits

I KNOW it can’t be all good

You must have a job

The kids can’t be that well behaved

How can you be having fun when you are shooting video of yourself the whole time

I still feel bad

What am i NOT doing right

I have bills to pay

I have a house to take care of

I’m single and can’t find a partner

I travel but not THAT much

Why do I care

It all an illusion to make me think they are better

or at least not sad

Everybody’s happy


Green in anger

Green in silence

Green and alone

Its time for some green tea to calm me down

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Posted by on March 17, 2017 in Spoken Word/Poetry


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Life changing

Life affirming



Be open to it.

It’s too unknown

Embrace it.

i just can’t

It might be good for you

It might destroy me.

my ego

my heart could get borken

my ego

my self esteem will go back down

my ego

Maybe i’ll like this job

Bye by ego

This person could be the one

Walk through it

Be present

this house could be our new sanctuary

Always do it

Maybe its time to have that baby

I will survive

I will thrive

it will work out.

It may not work out

It’s always right on time.

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Posted by on March 16, 2017 in Spoken Word/Poetry


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For 20 Years, I Was…

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Today it’s been 20 years.

I got the phone call that you were gone.

I didn’t understand what gone meant.

You left town?

I wish it was that simple.

You died.

You died.

You were gone.

A heart attack at 25.

I couldn’t believe it.

I was paralyzed.

I was devasted.

I was…

I ran out of words to accurately describe my emotions.

For years I was..

I tried to date others.

But I was.

I tried to love again and for years I couldn’t

Because I was.

I couldn’t stop looking at your picture.

I thought the pain would never end.

I just was…

But eventually time healed me.

I will never forget you or us.

I miss you and what you were.

I miss you and what you could’ve been.

20 years is a long time now.

But I miss you..

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Posted by on March 11, 2017 in Spoken Word/Poetry


Did I Call Them Into My Life?

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I was reminded today that people do care.

I was reminded today that some people care a lot.

Just when you think you are alone.

A ray of light shines on you

Look right in front of you.

Did I call them into my life?

Did they call me?

They spoke to me and I felt warm inside

Their words touched my heart

I thought my heart was broken forever.

Its beating again.

So strongly.

I feel renewed.



In My Bed

Sometimes I lay in my bed and can’t sleep.

Suddenly thoughts come rushing to my head.

My mood changes faster than turning off a light switch.

Actually it feels like turning off a light switch.

The dark is the backdrop for my thoughts.

Its hard being positive all the time.

Its necessary to move forward in the world.

I actually like being positive.

But i am human and those negative thoughts do come.

I am in bed and they consume me.

I am so tired of the grind.

But I love the grind.

Tears fill my eyes.

I hate feeling this way.

I do not like feeling conflicted.

I have good things in my life.

But I do have missing things in my life.

IN this moment that’s all I can think about.

I choose to accept these feelings and feel them out.

It’s morning.

The tears are gone.

The light is coming thru the window.

I feel hopeful again.

I put what happened last night behind me.

I make my bed.