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JLJ Poem: How Is Your Day?

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The Sun rises.

I rise too

The sun sets.

I set too.

The day is full.

I fill my day.

With the life I want!

How is your day?

 
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Posted by on December 10, 2018 in Spoken Word/Poetry

 

JLJ Poem: The WINter

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Trees shed their leaves.

Some flowers save their bloom.

The sky turns grey.

For me It’s a chance to rest

To regroup, reimagine, rethink

I will be new when Spring returns.

 

 
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Posted by on December 8, 2018 in Spoken Word/Poetry

 

JLJ Poem: My December

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It gets dark early.

But its dark for me all the time now.

I look for the light.

There are more lights out now.

It’s that time of the year.

It’s that time of the year to feel dark .

The light is just decoration

 
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Posted by on December 6, 2018 in Spoken Word/Poetry

 

4 Months Ago Today…..

Four months ago today I woke up and my mouth didn’t work properly and my ear hurt sooooo much. Super scared, I called my mother and told her I was going to the clinic. After several hours, I was diagnosed with Bells Palsy. Over the next three days, I helplessly watched my face droop (the left side) and lose control and feeling on that side. My eye, nose and mouth were paralyzed. That’s right PARALYZED! Could not feel them or lift them. My face was swollen and inflammed. The cranial nerve was damaged. I was put on meds right away. I couldn’t be;ieve this was happening to me!!! And I was told mine was probably caused by the extreme stress I was having in my personal life.

I was also told that most cases of Bells Palsy do clear up and the nerves go back to normal BUT……the timeline is different for each person. I could be fine in as early as 2 weeks or 1 year. ONE YEAR!!! My career is based on my talking and using my mouth!!! I sunk into a deep depression. I did lots of research and got vitamins and the foods that help with inflammation and nerve repair. I stopped EVERYTHING to rest! I wouldnt wish the first month and a half I had on ANYONE! During that time it was hard to eat, sleep, cough, spit, drink.. I literally lost my smile. I couldn’t laugh. My vision was blurred and and head was light. Day after day I was alone, I had to do everything myself. I had no one to take care of me. During this time I felt suicidal. I couldn’t live like this anymore.

After the month and a half, my face started coming back to life, and that’s been my journey so far. Everyday i’m in pain somewhere on my face or in my head. Which is supposed to be a good thing, cuz it means the nerves are coming back to life. I’m so over having this. I can’t STRESS THAT ENOUGH!!!! There are days that I live moment to moment and want to cry.

The positives are that I’ve been eating super healthy and have lost 50 lbs in 10 months total. From the neck down, I feel so much better. I am in tune with my body and all the signals it sends me. When I have an anxiety attack , I can calm myself down. I have edited my work life to work even more  of doing exactly the things I want to be doing. I am not back to where I was and that does get me down sometimes but I am determined to push through this and see the other side. My hope is that there won’t be a fifth month or sixth month…..

 
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Posted by on October 30, 2018 in Uncategorized

 

When It Gets Tough by James Lott Jr

I felt weird.

I felt strange.

I didn’t know what was happening to me.

I got scared.

I tried to stay calm.

It was getting the best of me.

It was happening.

There was nothing I could do to stop it.

It was consuming me.

The diagnosis was in.

I had to stop everything immediately.

Immediately

Everything.

Until further notice.

No date.

And so it began.

The journey I will never forget.

The feeling and non feeling I will never forget.

This wasn’t happening TO me.

It was borne out of ME.

It was time to correct it.

And time to correct me.

When it gets tough.

You have to be tougher.

When It get tough.

You have to look inward.

 

 

 

 

 
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Posted by on July 19, 2018 in Spoken Word/Poetry

 

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The Lost Days of February 29th- 31st

 

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It feels like time travel.

We are here, then we are there.

The month swallows up days like candy.

Suddenly its 3 days later in 1 days time

Its like magic.

Why isn’t there those 3 days?

Did they do something bad?

Except Feb 29th gets to come out and play every 4 years!

Its like we are trying to get to spring faster

We are tired of the winter

We close our eyes and March is here! 

I will never understand

Why February is so short

OR

are the others months too long

Either way I need to live for today! 

 
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Posted by on February 24, 2018 in Spoken Word/Poetry